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The Homeless Perched comfortably against the tunnel wall.
God I wish I was that Comfortable.
I wish I was that Secure.
~
We'll Drink Tonight. At least I Will anyway.
and We'll Seal Our Secrets in Cigarette Burns
Only To Learn We've Never Needed This.
What a Stupid Thing To Do.
To Go and Prove To You.
That I Still Look Back.

~

in the time it takes for me to unwind.
you're already gone
when is it ever as comfortable
as when we shared a drink,
a smoke and my sheets?
I'd like to think
i'd be better off
with a few more.
but at this point.
I don't think anything will ever fill this void.
one Closed Mind.
your Closed Eyes.
and my Open still beating Heart

~

when I fall I fall hard.
Onto the concrete pavement in my mind.
its a bit different now
cars and trains and planes don't make a sound
clowns and pastors dont speak truth
and when its eye to eye
we lie and lie
like our presidents in the past.

~

constant screaming i've heard
and i swear you'd feel
so much better away from here.

I'd empty my wallet just for that piece of mind
to that of which you'd find rolling a good cigarette and having a warm heart
and a mapped out future is as unplanned as
the first step a man's kid will take or the first words he’ll say
like I need you.
and i had names on my tongue.
various short stories that have shorted out,

constant ringing of voices i've heard
and i had names on my tongue
various short stories that have shorted out,
and i swear you'd feel so much better

no i know you'll feel so much better

i know I have

~

There ain't nothing Star Wars about it

oh sweet elvish lover
you've left home for another

and I swear it killed me
and I swear it did me in

Just when the Wrath of Kahn first started
you got up and left me there

I've got enough to be scared of
from Science Fiction

and theres nothing Star Wars about that.
no theres nothing Star Wars about that.

We could've stood on
Mount Doom holding hands
Hyper Hydrosis scares me

and if the one ring could
loop around both our fingers

we could disappear.
we could not exist

if you could pull off my mask
you'd find i'm no super hero

these hands can't shoot webs
i dont have a cool weapon belt

nor I a wand. and magic spells
no dragons or elves in this book.
not even goblins
only my heart and you
its easier than a rubik's cube.

and theres nothing Star Wars about that.
no theres nothing Star Wars about that.

Usually I never have Nightmares or Dreams or any unconscious visualizations. I guess last night my mind decided to do something different. I'm trying to find clarity in this. I realize now why i've been staying up till 4 am everyday just to avoid dreams as I pass out of exhaustion. I hope i can resolve this through sleeping earlier.

Its been a long long time since' i have posted on here. Almost two years . You would think there would be a plaque or prize for something like this... I'm not expecting one. But let me tell you, a lot has happened in 2 years. For starters I made myself a prisoner of music. I've joined a band, Graduated High School, Created another musical output, met some cool people, moved to nowhere. Got a new job, lost that job, Left a band, Got a new job !god damn!, and to think I would've done all that in two years? There were a lot of unmentioned things in there and If I forgot something, let me know?

Music Leaks are SOOOOOOOObad but so gooood simultaneously.

a lot has happened in the past few weeks.
drive. drive. drive.
gas is down. travel is up. so lets get the fuck outta here.
oh and i did something for change.

"
Go confidently in the direction of your dreams! Live the life you've imagined. As you simplify your life, the laws of the universe will be simpler."

Henry David Thoreau